of she is gone

she left us for the better. my grandma passed away yesterday at 3+ pm. was rushing to the hospital but she was gone while on my way there. my work place is so near Alexandra hospital and she din wait for me to arrive. probably is also my fault as I wanted to finish my work before visiting her. I tot she can wait but guess not. this guilt will live with me forever.
But John told me that she wouldn't know n concerned. yes I know but is the guilt I can't get over with when I put work over anything else. guess this is a painful lesson for me and I can learn it right

seriously I am prepared for this day when I visited her on tue. I saw the pain she is going through. tubes going in and out. not able to eat and in a unconscious state. it really pains me. together with CD, we prayed for God to take her away and release her from the pain. I kissed her forehead before i left the hospital and little I know it will be the last. I din get a chance to say goodbye.

I once again witness the mercy of God. please don't think I am trying to preach here. just some thoughts that i want to share.

well I learn a painful lesson this time and I hope to share this here so that ppl know about this and won't make the same mistakes I made.

no matter how busy u r, always spend time with your family. work can always come later. having to say that, I m working now instead of at the wake. just finish a conference call. damm

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